What is that anyway? Everyone these days is looking for balance. Especially working moms. The most common question that people ask me is "How do you balance it all?" The answer? "I don't."
Finding balance is a weekly struggle for me. A daily struggle for me. A minute by minute struggle for me. Now more than ever I am trying to change the way that I operate my business so that balance is not such a far fetched idea. Some days I feel like I am headed in the right direction. Others...not so much.
For a few weeks I gave myself a 10:30pm limit for working. I made more time to exercise, I got more sleep, I told myself over and over not to stress out over work, I focused more on Marlie and less on everything else. It was nice. However, now I feel behind. And today I felt so so very close to having a melt down. I hate that feeling.
So, I am up late. And my butt hurts from sitting here editing. And I'm thinking about my new website that I keep leaving to work on in my "free time". Yeah, there isn't any of that these days.
Today I am not feeling balanced. I'm behind on editing. My house is so very dirty. I seriously can't remember the last time I cleaned the bathroom. There are dust bunnies the size of tumbleweeds rollin around here. I'm almost out of Marlie's milk. I haven't worked out all week.
I think as women we look at other women and think "She has it all together. I want to be like her and have things balanced." What I've learned is that those ladies probably have huge tumbleweed dust bunnies rollin around too.
So, we may not find balance every day. But we should find grace. Grace for ourselves.
Back to work. Tomorrow is a new day.
4 comments:
Amen sister!!! I have this same problem. You took the words right out of my mouth.
Look at me I'm finally commenting! As you know your blog is one of my favorites so I need to be better about commenting! Balance is such a relative term---I struggle constantly with this and I don't even have a small child so how much of a mess does that make me? And I was just at your adorable place and saw no sign of a tumble weed.....it was incredibly clean!
Well said, Erin! I'm not working right now and I still find myself feeling overwhelmed some days with just Samuel! I haven't seen any tumbleweed rolling in my place today, but let's just say that our bathroom needs a "use at your own risk" disclaimer :).
Tumbleweeds? Check. Stayed up too late? Check. Work undone? check. Need to focus more on E? check.
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